I stopped and put down the laundry I was so amusingly attempting to fold, finding it quite difficult with a broken rib, sprained thumb, and contusion to my chest and shoulder after a bad fall a few days prior. From outside my bedroom door I could hear sweet notes of sovereignty and grace as my 17 yr old daughter was singing her precious heart out to the Lord. I quietly sat down directly outside the door to hear the song lyrics clearer. "From the love of my own comfort. From the fear of having nothing. From a life of worldly passions, deliver me O God. 2 From the need to be understood. From the need to be accepted. From the fear of being lonely, deliver me, O God. chorus And I shall not want no I shall not want. When I taste Your goodness, I shall not want....." ~ Audrey Assad
These days I find it so interesting, so profound that suddenly there are songs all around me that are pertinent to the needs of my heart. The cries of my soul. The prayers for freedom from situations at hand. Found wanting, but not seeking. The fight to be understood. To be heard. Why the continued endeavor for acceptance? To be accepted for my quirky humor. For my resounding laughter. For my failures. For my Faith. For my kindness and compassion. Why strive to be loved when I already am? From the One Whom matters most. How far I have come, yet so very far to go.
No longer shall I wonder in the halls of regret. Hear me O God, You already won the battle. You created within me a heart of flesh. You took the bad and ugly and turned it into glorious redemption and purpose. Your Love changed EVERYTHING the day I was reborn. I stood and will continue to stand in Victory, even when I fall short of Your Glory as I am strongest on my knees. You are my provision. You are my Morning Star. You created me for such a time as this. To stand even in the course of distress. To stand in the knowledge that I have a future and a hope. And that You will forever be by my side.
