It’s a cold blustery day today for the Month of April. The chill in the air lingers at the door, but dissipates as we enter the hallway of our home. It is shut out. The cold is not welcome here. Only the warmth of laughter, love, and lessons being learned are allowed to reside.
Lessons being learned is something we will continue to
experience as we grow in the Lord. Lessons in holding our tongue, when we only
want to spout out the feelings that we clench within our teeth. Learning to, “be quick to listen, slow to speak and slow
to become angry.” ~James 1:19. Not a reactor ready to explode. Furthermore,
James goes on to say in, 3:8 “but no man can tame the tongue. It is a
restless evil, full of deadly poison.” Further down I had written in my
bible, “What then?” as this is an area that at times I struggle with. Always have.
I am not a particularly prideful individual. As I have
said before, that has never been a struggle for me. But when it comes to
being a mother, I feel great pride and delight in whom my children have become
and are becoming. All so different and unique. All loved without condition. They
each have struggled in different ways that have brought me to my knees many a
time. But I found that this is where I long to be. To linger before my God.
Lifting their precious souls up to the Father’s Hands to take hold. To take
over. To do what I cannot.
This is where I see them best. Through my Father’s
eyes. To perceive their circumstance through a different lens. To glimpse into
their heart and understand their human nature. To be reminded that I was young
once. At times I too became complacent to what I was told. A streak of
stubbornness and carefree spirit, I wore them well.
So, what then? What then when I lose my temper? When I loose my tongue? When I hurl regrets? I apologize with great remorse. I tearfully console the wrong I have done. I pray that mistakes are not what is remembered but the remorse for my actions. That my four treasures will see in me what I see in them. Imperfect Perfection.
