As I waited

Many quietly kept conversations fill the waiting room where I anxiously await for my husbands return. I lean over to pick up his bible. I begin  to skim through the crinkled pages and turn to a page marked with a yellow post it. Isaiah 6:1-8. The words seem to jump directly off the page and into my heart, much in need of conviction.

I read starting at verse 1 "In the year that King Uzziah died, I saw the Lord seated on a throne, high and exalted, and the train of his robe filled the temple. 2 Above Him were seraphs, each with six wings.....3 And they were calling to one another: 
                                                        "Holy, holy, holy is the Lord 
                                                                     Almighty,
                                                          The whole earth is full of 
                                                                    His glory."
Moving on down to 5 "Woe to me!" I cried. "I am ruined! For I am a man of unclean lips, and my eyes have seen the King, the Lord Almighty." 6 Then one of the seraphs flew to me with a live coal in his hand, which he had taken with tongs from the alter. 7 With it he touched my mouth and said, "See this has touched your lips; your guilt is taken away and your sin atoned for." Warm, salty tears fill the corner of my eyes for my penitent soul has been forgiven. 8 "Then I heard the voice of the Lord saying, "Whom shall I send? And who will go for us?" And I said, "Here am I. Send me!"

I am far from perfect. I talk too much. Listen less. Often selfish. And far more times than I'd like to admit my temper has gotten the best of me. But I know that I have been commissioned by God for greatness. Not within strength but through weakness. My life has purpose and meaning. It has been warped by sin, now redeemed by His precious blood. And I am ready! Are you?